What’s the buzz #41

Ok, I give up. I have come to the realisation I can’t manage to post these at the end of the month any more, so you will just have to bear with me for running so late!

This months fabulous writing

And so I hide by Girl on the Net

I feel this so hard. As well as the shitty pandemic, as well as the shitty transphobia in the blogging community there have been other challenges life has thrown my way. I just can’t keep up with it all which means I bury myself away, ignore the world and just wade through the treacle on my own. Is it the best option? Clearly not but it’s all I can do right now and for the foreseeable future. Will I bounce back? Maybe, who knows but for now I too will hide.

Object of your desire by Violet Grey

This is something I too have struggled with. I want to be desire, I need to feel wanted. And yet I retain the right to say no and even ‘fuck off’ to those that stray beyond my boundaries. I’ve also had a life time of listening to so-called feminist who tell me it’s wrong to think like that, that I’m giving in to the patriarchy. Well now I’m out as gender queer can I ignore those voices? No I can’t becasue they’ve been in my head too long. But I am who I am, I deserve to feel desired.

The power of a request by Honey

I felt this one so hard it made me cry. I grew up with similar feelings. I’m not good enough and I’m not wanted. It doesn’t matter how many times I’m told otherwise, I can’t see how it can be true. I will ask people so many times until I stop asking anymore, I will shrink away and hide in the background becasue asking and being rejected is too painful. However, I will say this. Honey, you are very much wanted, don’t listen to the side of your brain that tells you otherwise because it is lying to you.

In camera by Mollys Daily Kiss

I am incredibly envious of photographers out theres, especially ones that can photograph themselves. It is a skill I lack, I am clueless what makes a good photo, I just point, click and hope. Thats also rings true for the creative side, my photo’s seem to be very repetative so I shy away from taking them, especially as few people engage with them now. But Molly has that gift, the creativity, the skill and the passion. I loved reading her words and they made me yearn to have even a tiny amount of the relationship she has with her camera.

This months gorgeous images

I am feeling creative by Ouizzi

This is incredibly. I gasped aloud when I first saw it and when my partner walked past as I had it open on my screen he stopped and came back to admire it. I want to have this hanging on my wall!

Walk beside me by Exposing 40

This screamed out to me when I saw it. It’s one of my favourite locations and I can’t hold back from going for a visit myself any longer. The beach, the tranquility and the big sky. But this image has an added element of friendship, that is something I have missed this year, more than anything.

Pink petals by Missy

This is Missy at her best. Seemingly simple and yet really difficult to actually pull off right. The vibrancy of the pink really caught my eye and lifted my mood, how can you not smile at this?

A modest cuckqueanry by Modesty Ablaze

I have very few words I can say about this except unnnfff. It has made me crave being in this exact position, something I definitely need to work on very soon!

Offering by Little Switch Bitch

Isn’t this amazing. What is being offered here? Is it the flogger? Or is it her? I think it’s a mixture of both. But what also caught my eye was the beautiful pattern of the wooden handle. If you hadn’t already guessed, I do love wood to hold, to stroke and to inhale the scent of.