A few weeks ago I published this post telling you about the outfit I was about to wear to a CMNF event we were attending, I was asked by a few people for a follow up, so here it is. I know the prompt is about leads or leashes, bear with me I will come back round to them.
This is the second time we have attended a CMNF event and it just ticks so many of my boxes. I love the quiet, calming atmosphere, I love seeing the men looking smart in their suits and I love the feeling of vulnerability being so exposed makes me feel. Like all of us I’m not happy with how I look so for people to see me as I really am and not with the right angles for a camera would be difficult especially as I count some of the people at the event as good friends.
The first time we went I didn’t wear such a revealing outfit, I did however mention that one day I wanted to be brave enough to just be able to wear my collar and cuffs but I couldn’t see it ever happening. Well, I should have know that the very next CMNF event we would attend, that is exactly what I’d be wearing! Needless to say I was nervous, knowing I was wearing it for Sir made a lot of difference but I was still nervous.
I have worn that outfit for him on a number of occasions, none of them in public, but this time around he added a lead to it. He has often joked about putting me on a lead when we go shopping as I often get distracted by something shiny and wander away but I didn’t think he’d actually do it. Also as someone who is fiercely independent being on a lead interested me but also worried me.
How wrong was that fear. I have always worn his collar with pride but this time to be so connected to him at the same time made that bond so much more intense. I felt he was proud of me and wanted to show people I belonged to him. It enforced who was in charge and it was the first time I spent the entire afternoon either kneeling or sitting at his feet.
I had no idea being kept on his lead would have such a deep effect on me. It really was a special day for us and I want to thank everyone who was there to share it with us.