…or at least this Bee does.
Looking back I have always loved sex, right from a young age I knew I was a highly sexual person. I also knew it was wrong, girls aren’t supposed to like it, it’s dirty and unclean.
I will never forget the shame of being caught masturbating by my mother, that talk we had. I can remember her exact words ‘you only touch your front bottom when you’re cleaning it, then when you get married your husband can touch you there’. Being told if she caught me again she’d have to take me to a therapist because there was obviously something wrong with me. Looking back at the whole incident with adult eyes I realise she was just embarrassed but at the time all it made me do was be more careful when she was around and push me discover the fun that I could have with boys at an age where it was less than appropriate.
And I have never understood why girls aren’t supposed to enjoy sex, why are we labelled as sluts? Why should guys get all the fun and a pat on the back? Why do we have clitoris’ if we’re not supposed to enjoy playing with them? After all it takes two (or more) to have that fun so why should only half of the population enjoy it without the guilt?
Thankfully that early start has taught me a thing or two. It’s ok to explore your body and be sexual, it’s ok to discover who you are and it’s ok to know what you want.
And I don’t want any of that clean polite sex either. I want you to pin me down and take me, I want it hot, I want passion and I want it messy, I want it to hurt and I want to feel the aching and the bruises afterwards and I want to, no need to, crave more of you.