I saw this tweet from Molly and it got me thinking.
Now I think she actually meant something rather than someone but my mind had already started racing.
My first thoughts were how hot that sounded but that was quickly followed by the realisation that for me it wouldn’t work.
When I masturbate it now tends to be to reach a goal, if I know I’m not going to cum then there is no real point. Yes, I do love to edge but I rarely get the time to do so now. And in order for an orgasm to occur I need to be somewhere where I’m comfortable and that place is usually our bed.
When I saw the tweet about masturbating in the open I realised I always have to be hidden away for the happy ending I want, even if I’m in bed I have to have the covers over me. There have been a few occasions I’ve attempted to do so on the sofa but the only successful time is when the duvet was close by so I could grab it and hide away. I hadn’t really even given it any thought until now.
Its a sad thing to admit but I can’t even masturbate when Sir is in the house. If I’m playing in front of him, that’s fine, my exhibitionist streak comes into play and that makes it so much sexier. I know if he caught me he wouldn’t mind, if anything he is likely to join in but I just can’t do it.
I think I’ve mentioned in the past my mother caught me in the act and threatened to ‘take me to a shrink’ if she discovered me doing it again. I didn’t think it had much of an affect on me but looking back I think it may have had a fairly devastating one. I always made sure I was never caught again so it was always something I did either under the covers facing the bedroom door or hidden in the wardrobe. Even now if I had a big enough wardrobe it’s likely that’s where I’d be!
I’m not sure where my ramblings are going but now I’ve made that connection I think I maybe I need to work on retraining myself. With Sirs patience and help I may one day be able to find a corner of some woodland and enjoy the wonders of nature.
Charlie
Oh, I have to have the covers over me, too!
Kat
I agree with Rebel… Our childhood experiences can be so key in how we approach our sexuality. Having been educated by nuns from age 4-17 I can tell you a thing or two about shame!
As a teen I had sex outdoors, (because there was simply nowhere else available!), but I have never masturabted alone outdoors either… I think the fear of being caught would be counterproductive for me.
I think the idea of asking your Sir to help you explore and push your boundaries is a wonderful idea! Hopefully, with his love, acceptance and guidance you will get to where you would like to be.
Kat X
Jane
This has got me thinking now, too! For me, there is quite a big thrill in the idea of being caught, although I never have been by anyone other than M, so I can’t say how I would react to the ‘catcher’ being someone other than him.
One of the best stories I ever heard about someone being caught masturbating was related by a family friend. He was an electrician and turned up at a house/flat to fix or review a fault. I can’t remember the details clearly (it was a long time ago) but I believe that whoever let him in directed him to one of the bedrooms (presumably the location of the broken electric), and there, lying on the bed was a woman masturbating. Obviously, he was rather surprised but what surprised him more, if I recall correctly, was the fact that she totally ignored them both and didn’t stop what she was doing. Go her! (I think the upshot was they had to shut the door and wait until she was done.)
Jane
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Twiglet at 100AcreSub
For me part of the thrill is in being caught… The transgression of it. It’s the potential as much as bein caught that turns me on. I also love the idea of accidentally catching someone masturbating. It is so often a private act (as your post demonstrates) that to watch offers so much intimacy even if the person wanking never knows I am there. I’ve never done this for fear of being seen as a stalker or peeping Tom but the reason for not revealing myself is so as not to interrupt their happy ending. So I hope you and your Sir can find other happy spaces for you to find your happy ending 🙂
Molly
Oh do it….. there is something so wonderful about being able to stick your hand down your pants in the middle of a beautiful woodland or somewhere like and make yourself cum. I am a big fan
Mollyxxx
Cammies on the Floor
The beauty of a partner is sometimes finding someone who will push our boundaries when we ourselves will not.