When I look in the mirror I don’t like what looks back at me. I’ve never had a very high opinion of myself, I don’t particularly like how I look but it goes deeper than that, I don’t particularly like me. And probably for that very reason I’ve always hidden behind a camera, I’d much rather be taking photos of gorgeous views rather than spoiling the scenery by appearing in them!
I know Sir always tells me how gorgeous i am, how sexy I am. No matter how much I trust him there are always doubts in my mind and I will always wonder what he sees in me that I can’t.
However, there is definitely a big exhibitionist streak in me and posing for a camera especially in an outdoor location is something that gives me a real thrill. I guess the reality is the secret flashing or some sneaky outdoor nudity is where I get my thrill, the camera just gives me a way of getting caught without really getting caught.
When we decided to start this blog Sir decided a camera upgrade was needed. He already had a creative side so it didn’t surprise me to discover he had a good eye for an image but what really surprised me was my own reaction to my images.
The girl in his photos is gorgeous, she is sexy, just like Sir had been telling me I was. I still can’t always see that the girl in the photos is me and as soon as I see any images with my face in I’m no longer keen on them. But the confidence I’ve got having seen myself through somebody else’s eyes is amazing.