Every breath you take

Every breath you take
Every move you make
Every bond you break
Every step you take
I’ll be watching you

Every breath you take – The Police

I had originally considered Berlin’s take my breath away but I’ll explain why I decided on The Police’s slightly creepy lyrics a bit later.

Breathplay is something that absolutely terrifies me. To the point I find myself freaking out when I see clips of it, that doesn’t stop me trying to watch them though, I clearly don’t have that kind of restraint needed to stop myself.

I don’t want to feel the sheer panic as I try to gasp for breath. I don’t want to feel dizzy from lack of oxygen, I’ve experienced how that feels and it’s not something I want to repeat.

Obviously breathplay comes in degrees and what I’ve spoken about is the upper limit. It can be as innocuous as a hand over your mouth or having to hold your breath. That I can do.

I have always been intrigued by gas masks though, I’ve never really understood them so wanted to give one a go just to see if it’s something that could work for me. And was it? In a word, no. Maybe I chose the wrong one, if I’d chosen one I could see out of would that have been better? Who knows. All I know is I felt a bit nauseous so coupling one with a rebreather bag is a definite no.

I’ve always had a fantasy of being pinned down with a hand over my throat whilst I’m fingered to orgasm. I’m not sure if it’ll ever be a reality though.

Breathplay is remarkably dangerous. Whilst I’m not against a certain amount of risk putting myself in a dangerous situation just doesn’t appeal to me. All it takes is to be distracted for a split second and the results could be dire.

That brings me back around to my choice of lyrics. Putting them in the context of breathplay they stop being creepy, I want someone to watch me every step of the way and keep me safe.