You may think that because I post images of myself online that I enjoy a bit of self voyeurism. If that’s what you think, then you are mistaken. I love others viewing me and I’m definitely a exhibitionist and I’m a voyeur of others. But myself…nah!
I take videos of myself to send to others and I view them (without sound) to make sure they captured what I intended them to but they don’t make me feel anything as I dissociate from them. The same is true for images I take and share. I can appreciate a good image but quite often that stems from the memories associated with them.
I never watch myself in a mirror, either fucking or wanking. Often that’s down to not wearing my glasses for fear of breaking them. But also, I don’t see myself fucking as hot. I would focus on my partner instead, watching how their back looks, or the way their hips are thrusting but seeing myself would put me off.
However, there was an experience I had recently which changed that a little. I was led on a collar and leash to a bowl of water and told to drink. It was something I’ve never done in the past so I had no idea how I’d really feel about it. But also, the bowl was stainless steel which meant it was completely reflective, there was no escaping what I was being made to do. If I wanted to see where the water was I had to keep my eyes open, I had to watch myself to see myself being humiliated. And fuck, that was so hot!
Will that experience change how I feel, I doubt it but it’s opened my eyes up to a new view of myself.
Julie
Wow Bee, that is so profound. There is something so weird about kink that makes us do things we don’t think we want to and then reveal so much to ourselves about ourselves.
Molly
I love that about kink. When you have a moment that leads you to a new self discovery. That is such a powerful thing
Molly
Modesty Ablaze
Very hot to read … and lovely photo to remember the occasion by.
Very sexy!!!
Xxx – K
HappyComeLucky
I’m happy to do all the voyeuring possible of you because you are ridiculous hot. Have you not heard the noises I make when I see you.
Also: you + leash + dog bowl = unnnggghhhhfuck!