A step tattoo far

Bee's Bee tattoo

Do I like a tattoo or few? Absolutely! Both on myself and on others.

I currently have 6, well technically 5 1/2 because I still have around six hours left to go on my new one. Not that you’d know because the Keeper edits out my tattoos from any images to reduce the chances of being identified.

One or two of them were done when I was young, I got my first at fifteen. Whilst I wouldn’t chose the ones I picked back then I’m also not ashamed of any of them.

As someone that’s been into needleplay, it may not surprise you that I quite enjoy the sensation of tattoos. They relax me. Some of them have been more painful than others. The one on my hip, in this image, I fell asleep through. The only discomfort I was in was having to balance on my other hip.

However, the same cannot be said about the latest one. So far it has been six hours of agony and I’m not looking forward to the second session at all. The swelling and the pain of walking in the week that followed was also a surprise, I’ve never had soreness post tattoo before. I was planning on getting a matching one on my other leg in the future but I’m having to give that some serious consideration, do I really want to go through something this painful again? Maybe time will make me forget and it’ll be so pretty once it’s done.

But my relationship with pain has dramatically changed over the past year. My joints constantly ache and my muscles scream at me. The odd occasion that the Keeper has tried inserting a needle in me has made me scream at him to stop before I collapse into a sobbing heap not understanding what’s wrong with me. And now I’m stuck in a cycle of wanting to try again and yet being scared to which then makes me tense up which would make it more painful.

I digress.

I love the uniqueness of tattoos, how each one is both individual and personal to the individual it’s on. I love tracing a finger over the ink. I love peoples creativity and whilst it’s the artists work, the thought came from that person.

I think this is especially so in the case of people transforming surgical scars etc. You take something that has been traumatic and it turns into a story of growth and that is a truly beautiful thing.

I’m not a huge fan of couples tattoos, there’s too much at stake. We never know how long a relationship will last, even if we think we do. I took a massive risk with the Bee and honeycomb because so much about my name is wrapped up in my relationship with the Keeper. Would I still be Bee if we were to part ways, hopefully but I really can’t answer that and hope I never have to.

Tattoos are all kinds of wonderful for all kinds of different reasons. But getting any more maybe a step tattoo far for me.

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