I’m going to start this post the way I started my last post on being a cuck.
Cuckqueaning, for those of you that don’t know, is where a woman likes to watch her partner have sex with other women. There is often an element of humiliation but that doesn’t always have to be the case. As always, your relationship, your rules.
And, as I also previously stated, cuckolding refers to men who like to watch their partner, cuckqueaning refers to females who like to watch their partner. But it’s yet another example of the gender binary and for someone who sits outside that binary it makes this kink a bit tricky. So instead of cuckold or cuckquean, I’ll be using the term cuck instead. It feels less divisive.
Am I still a cuck? Well yes but it isn’t central to me and my relationship with my partner(s). For me, it’s not a lifestyle but an element of how we play. What does this mean?
If we’re all playing together then I want to be in the same room. Tie me to a chair in the corner and ‘force’ me to watch or listen whilst I’m being teased. However, if I’m shut out of the room then their moment is for them and I’m no longer involved. That doesn’t mean I feel shut out, I’ll quite happily curl up with a book in another room whilst they play but the feelings of being teased and involved are no longer there.
Likewise, if he’s out on a date with someone else then their focus is on each other and not me, as it should be. For example, an upcoming date has been thrown into chaos by train strikes. Working out how to get round them was tricky but I researched what was or wasn’t possible and was willing to drive four hours to drop him off. Was I being a good little cuck? Well no, I’m just being a supportive partner and helping him out in an awkward situation. As it happened we managed to find an alternative that involved less driving for me.
But do I still love being edged before being locked in chastity whilst I’m teased and denied like a good little cuck slut? Do I like being hooded so I can’t see what’s happening? Yes to all that and more please? But for me the involvement is key.