There’s only one thing to do when I’m feeling blue that’s guaranteed to put a smile back on my face. A huge, wonderful, mind-blowing orgasm!
Sadly that’s something that has been a bit of a struggle recently, things are improving but not as quickly as I’d like. One of my nicknames is Little Miss Impatient and I have to admit I just want to be me again. When I don’t reach that much needed orgasm it only makes me feel worse again.
Even worse is partnered orgasms are almost non-existent right now. I need to make it clear that it’s nothing to do with my partner, he’s been a wonderful support and understands how this is effecting me. I need to take my time and learn to explore myself and find out what works for me again before I can show him what I need. But in the meanwhile it just makes feel guilty that I don’t work as I should.
So right now I’m doing exactly that, trying everything possible to find out what works for me. Historically I’ve never used toys because they’ve not done anything for me, fingers have always got the job done far better and quicker but now I’m revising that and seeing if toys can help.
I picked up this absolute beauty, made by Ceramic Pleasures, at Eroticon earlier this year. I had no intention at the time of using it, I just thought it was art that needed to be on display somewhere.
Whilst I still don’t find dildos work for me, they can be another tool I can use along the way. Now if I’m feeling blue, I can reach for my not-so-little blue beauty to help raise a smile.